i was online on invisible right? i got an e-mail from livejournal telling me i got a message from someone that shall remain nameless telling me some shit..

yeah viviana? its over.

i never did any of that shit even when i was told that i should because it seemed like you didn't care. i told nazuki that you do care but i guess i was wrong wasn't i? i guess this is karma for me doing the shit i did to people, especially taka. teddy bear..i'm sorry i've ever put you through pain.....

on a good note i'm glad i stayed in yokohama. i'm leaving my old life behind and i'm going to go to school here with nazuki. i'm getting my shit together and maybe when i'm okay enough i'll start rping again. i have my aunt to thanks for all of this.

i don't know if i'll be on in time but i just wanna say happy birthday alli!!!!!

i miss the old days of alli and my teddy bear..they weren't stressful

fuck this. people say 'it's just rp' but idc its obviously affecting me isn't it? i should've stayed offline like i was told

god the live was amazing......i remember why i love gazette! lol well it's probably already been posted but they wore their dim outfits, fanservice took place but not as much or as flamboyant as usual (lmao) and the new pv for before i decay is GORGEOUS; it looks like they're going back to their older harder days but with a touch of their new style you know? it's gonna be on the new fast and the furious movie and its a pretty big deal for them to do this movie. i think they might be on the soundtrack here.

ANYWAY the set list was this:


hakuri
the invisible wall
leech
hyena
distress and coma
shiroki yuuutsu
erika
13stairs[-]1
headache man
kanshoku
without a trace
nakigahara
sikyu
guren
a moth under the skin (this song was amazing live)
cockroach
filth in the beauty
in the middle of chaos
ogre
discharge
dim scene
moro

ENCORE 1:
ride with the rockers
go to hell
ruder
social riot machines
anata no tame no kono inochi (i love that song)
linda -candydive pinky heaven-

ENCORE 2:
miseinen

they showed us the video and shit for before i decay, like......all of it and god i loved it. my cousin missed out on an amazing live. i'm sore because i haven't done para para movements in forever and my neck is so stiff and sore. i don't know how they do it the way they do.

but yeah i wish i could stay for their hymn of the crucifixion live on christmas eve. who knows? I might lol. their releasing the final dvd the same month so you have to get a job so you can get it reila~ lmao. yeah....i'm gonna go soak in the hot bath that my aunt drew up for me then i'm gonna crash out. i didn't get that much sleep because i was too happy that i saw the final. maybe you can see me on the dvd?

lol goodnight everyone

stupid of me to think that you'd remember

after a fucking long ass flight, i'm here at my aunt's house in bed. it was amazing; my aunt stopped at mcdonalds and i remember why i love fast food here so much; it's not as greasy as american food and god i love it. we're staying here in osaka with my other aunt to rest up because i was too damn tired to drive four hours to yokohama. once we get up we're driving to my aunt's house to stay there (i love it there laksd)

as for the gazette final in sept. (i'm sure ruki will be fine by then) my aunt said i'll have to take the tomei exp. way and that she's going to go with me lol. she's 36 and she loves gazette; how cool is that?

but yeah i'm fucking exhausted, my body is sore and my ass is still kinda numb from sitting down for so long. i'll see you all later.

It's been a year since I've started roleplaying on myspace again..I originally had Runa before she was deleted but then I came back when Rei asked me to make Uruha so her Aoi wouldn't be alone and Haruky made Kai. Rei and I kept our accounts and christ it's been a bumpy year..I remembered when I was just starting to get into the swing of things..I met Jen through her Akira and that was one of the worst relationships Kouyou's even been in but I don't regret it. All of last summer was pretty cool. I met Taka/Berry (syoumilk) as well as Alli and Selene. I miss the old times but I know after all of the shit that's happened..it can never go back..

Too much shit has been talked and too much drama has happened; relationships emerged before they crashed and burn and throwing people into depression. There was backstabbing, lies, betrayal..and not all of it was in the roleplay. Through all of the bullshit I've realized one thing..people can talk so much shit about someone but then out of nowhere (be it for them wanting to make someone jealous to get their revenge) they become friends with the person they're talking about. I'm a bit guilty of it myself but..it's not as severe as some of the cases that I've seen. Like..I remember being told by someone that they hate people like this other person that I used to talk to..and all of a sudden they're "BEST FRIENDS FOREVER" and shit because they hooked up in roleplay. ......wtf? If I couldn't stand people like that person then I wouldn't even associate with them. People talk so much shit about other people it's ridiculous and something I'll never understand. (I don't understand why people bring in other innocent people into the shit too..it's pathetic) Ehh..I get tired of this kind of shit.

Don't know what else to say really..


yeah.

I quit.

Time of Dying by Three days grace or Everything you want by Vertical Horizon.

Also..





Spending the night tonight~ Gonna offer support if she's disappointed.

Dude Super Mario and Yoshi! Erm..old-school Donkey Kong..SONIC! Hell yeah sonic! The old Castlevania games too.





Non-Existant [1-3 Month Hiatus] says:
*what you think of the layout?

» Kouyou; .perfection.™ says:
*I love it~
*Fairy!Yuta~ >3

Non-Existant [1-3 Month Hiatus] says:
*>.>;
if you say it that way.. i might change it

» Kouyou; .perfection.™ says:
*XD I CAN'T HELP IT
*He's a fairy >>;
*I love that picture of him though

Non-Existant [1-3 Month Hiatus] says:
*he's suppose to look scary and manly >.<
*i will change the picture when i get home

» Kouyou; .perfection.™ says:
*XDD
*HE LOOKS PRETTY AND PINK


I HAVE TO WAIT TEN HOURS?! Laaaaaaaame! I don't care though. I feel..kajsdh! My heart.. ドキドキ♪~‼

Title: Good Morning
Chapters: Drabble
Author: ultimatecircus
Genre: Sugar coated fluff.
Rating: Is there anything less than G?
Word count: 508
Pairing: ..I want it to be a little surprise~
Band(s): the GazettE
Disclaimer: I'm GazettE's new leader; I made them realize they're gay
Synopsis: “You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

( Sunlight poured in, pulling an exhausted guitarist out of his much cherished sleep.. )

I'm not going to listen to your bullshit anymore. You whine and complain that you want to be my friend but you go around and blocked me. I don't fucking care anymore you fucking cunt. Go ahead and whine to anyone who'll listen. You talk all your shit but you know what? I'm not going to be here anymore.

I'm fucking done with you and everyone involved with you.

Stupid slut.

Living in the world that we're in right now makes me almost disgusted to be apart of it. We have come a long way from the barbaric ancients who first discovered fire and the wheel but how truly evolved are we? Our minds are beyond comprehension, developing new and better tecnology than what we've had before but our appreciation for it, along with the earth, is the same as it had been so many years ago. We live day to day, interested in the stupidest things pop culture is feeding us without realizing what is truly important.

In a world full of poverty, war, global warming, terrorist scares and god knows what else the news cares about stupid programming like Dancing with the Stars. All the media today is filled with 'who-is-fucking-who', 'who's divorce is being finalized' and the lastest weight loss trends that is sweeping the nations, fake, photoshopped pictures of how much weight they lost plastered everywhere. What we don't see is the harsh reality we face every day. Yes gas prices are skyrocketing but what it the reason behind it? We always bitch and moan about how shit is getting out of hand and how the price on everything is blowing up but we don't ask ourselves 'at what costs are they going up other than the money in my pocket?' We're using up the world's natural resources and plauging our earth with litter and toxic waste. We use up much more energy than we ever thought and slowly we're marking the way to our extinction.

Despite how beautiful it may seem we're light junkies, that which is another thing we take for granted. Everything in this world is so fucked up that I continuously wonder if there is any way that we can fix the mess that every single one of us, whether we want to admit it or not, helped create. Beyond the media that the news puts on the air, beyond all the pointless shit we're being fed, there are still the problems that we don't pay attention to. Crime is on the rise (more killing, more robberies, more everything), wars are breaking out whether domesticated in the home between parent and child, or between countries and we still face the terrible fact of the ozone layer slowly melting away more and more every single day. I'm not trying to lecture anyone on how we should live like all of the enviromentalists out there but I'm just saying that the news disgusts me with how they're more concerned about the lastest Britney scandal than the starving children within their own country, the sick and twisted people abusing animals and humans alike, the homeless that are suffering daily because they can't get help on their addiction or they had bad luck in the economic crisis we're in, the continuous tragedies we're hit with because of the hurricanes or anything of the sort. We're too wrapped up in ourselves and celebrities to stop and think about those kind of things..and that is what saddens me..This world is a complete fucking hell..

And we're all apart of it, not even realizing it

Title: Teen Hearts
Chapters: 2/??
Author: ultimatecircus
Genre: Drama, romance, AU.
Chap. Warnings: Language, explicit sexual content.
Chapter/Overall Rating: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Aoi x Uruha
Synopsis: My usually calm exterior was quickly melting away, irritation easily replacing it. I was prone to accidents and, much to my dismay, I seemed to become flustered whenever Aoi and I were near each other.
Comments: I have no idea what to put for the title, nor do I know where I got this idea from. This is my first time ever posting fanfiction anywhere on the web. Dedicated to my Neko. ♥

( Three days had passed since the kiss, and I felt like I was slowly losing my sanity... )

Title: Teen Hearts
Chapters: 1/??
Author: ultimatecircus
Genre: Drama.
Chap. Warnings: Language, sexual references.
Chapter/Overall Rating: PG-15/NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Aoi x Uruha
Synopsis: Everyone would expect me to instantly fall in love and pour my heart out to him. This isn't TV; I don't fall for people so easily, nor do I allow them to get too close. I wasn't going to push my pride aside for some stranger I didn't even know, and by the way he seemed, he wasn't going to, either.
Comments: I have no idea what to put for the title, nor do I know where I got this idea from. This is my first time ever posting fanfiction anywhere on the web. Dedicated to my Neko. ♥

( I wasn't sure exactly what had happened... )

I love how people just bring OOC shit IC when we're roleplaying. It show how stupid and immature people truly are. HAHA you need to seriously grow up and get a life before it comes back to bite you in the ass.

No longer adding people.